Wednesday, January 25, 2006
its already the 25th january 2006; a wednesday . oh man , how time flies and its going to be february soon .
the date is drawing near . very near in fact . O's results will be released in 2 weeks time , 6th feb to be precised . i am not feeling confident at all . somehow this anxiety is seriously killing me . i screwed prelims up totally and its something i dare not look upon . i wouldnt want history to repeat itself . who would anyway ? ):
i remember vividly those times whereby i'll study for my major papers with dean and jaryl at JE library . though at times our attention is easily diverted , i did learnt and covered a lot of stuffs . there was even a point of time whereby all i did was to concentrate and continue mugging . they did push me to work harder and believe ni myself . they did make me laugh . there were also times whereby i'll meet up with mr koh at pioneer mall with farah and gang to clear our doubts on physics . attempted god knows how many other school prelim paper . breaking our fast outside most of the time . panicking each time we finally realised the importance of physics and realised how much we actually suck at it . lastly , those mugging days in pjc . (: i'll come and complete my pure and math revision in the school canteen from morning to early evenings . those tracks which bring serenity and concentration . those laughters in between our mugging session with dean , leedeeya , rez and jaryl .
i've given mybest yet i feel that it will just turn out all wrong . i have a premonition that somehow its going to be a catastrophe . i know i'm being such a pessimist , but i can't help it . i seriously can't . i've made lots of sacrifices during the O's period , yet i dont think i'll be able to get what i've always dreamed for . it just sucks when what you
actually deserve you can't have it .
goodbye SAJC . worst still , goodbye PJC .rahh . i hate this feeling . its definitely
not moodswing . its not getting any better either . tell me how frustrating and nerve-racking can this get ? ):
