Of what it seems to be

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

I was on my way to town with Xinyi when i met my long lost ~~boyfriend~~ eyecandy in the train .
Yesyes , he caught my attention for like a pathetic yet worthwhile 10 mins .
His dressing is super fetch & interesting .

BOY SMILED ((:

& he dont look like the boy next door doesnt he ?
Minus off his not too bad looking face .

Well , wait till you see this .

Isn't he just a little too fetch & interesting people ?

I tell you , even dean's dressing sense lose lorh .
HE caught my attention like the moment he stand there .
I've never seen anywhere wear like that before .
Close to that , yes , but not exactly like him .
As much as you may think its a little turn off , its rather cool cos it fits him well ((:
He still look hot & not an eye-sore .
& he has this super sexy adidas shoes .
Xinyi likes them , well i have to agree .
Thou his folded jeans attratced me moreeeee ((:
Dean , he win you in this , cos i've seen you in folded pants before .
Lol .
With addition to the bag .
Omg , i so swear he attracted my attention totally .
Screams ..
& he's not that bad looking lah!
Despite wearing likewise , in which many thinks is a little effeminate .

But the way he walk turns me off a little .
US rather .
He alighted at Raffles Place together & walked in front of us .
His walking is super gay please !
I think even a top model loses .
Hah .

Let's just say , its love at first super fetch dressing sense .
Wahahaha .

Monday, June 26, 2006

Its not that i do not want to open up .
Its simply beacuse i can't seem to .
What makes you think i very much want to suppress it all inside ?
What makes you think this masquerade is such a fun thing to do afterall .
& what makes you think opening up has become an option and not a decision ?
Something i badly wanted to do .

Its so subtle yet it hit me so hard .
It has this exasperating kind of feel .
Gosh , i hate having to start the week badly .
I hate it when a simple conversation is the perfect thing to bring me down so badly .

Saturday, June 24, 2006

I know i have not been updating .
I have not been going online either .
Recently , i felt super lazy to even on the laptop / comp .
Much less to even come online .
So yeah , no entries .
No late night chats .
No gossips .
No bitching .

Been going out everyday . Yes , everyday .
Needless to say , i'll spend money .
I'm financially drained .
So am i physically . =/

& i went to catch R.V recently .
Its definitely worth your money .
You'll laugh to your hearts content .
It'll warmth your heart too .
SO you get to kill tow birds with one stone .
Even small kids laugh horrendously loud .
Worth it ?
Yes ? No ?

I have a lot of wants on my shopping list .
Two flesh imp tops in which i was close into buying yesterday .
Xinyi's presistance to as me buy failed , but i think i'm still gonna buy them .
A black tube dress from Tanlines ; Wisma .
Yes Xinyi the$69 dress , the one with coloured stripes at the top .
My favourite , not yours . Heh .
An orange M)phosis tank top , in which i will buy soon too .
A new wallet ; cos dad owe me a new one
& mom still owe me a pair of heels .
Ha !

Went for some second cousin dinner with parents & aunt & cousins today .
The food at the wedding was disastrous .
I was complaining & whining throughout the entire wedding .
So were my aunt & mom .
& my cousin ; Evelyana .
Sherlynda was moodswinging , so she didnt talk much .
Thank god or she would have whined more than all four of us .

Was a little pist & we left .
Aunt suggested we go for high tea . =/
Super anti climax .
But the high tea made my day ((:
Correction , it made all of our day .
I kept eating & eating & eating .
Super sinful when i'm supposed to go on a diet .
Raaaahhhh !
More yoghurt , since i still have four more in the fridge .
Xinyi , Sya & Ferynn ; ROLLERBLADING !
Running please .
Swimming !
Natasha you better let Woodgrove be mine or i smack you with your hockey stick .
LOL .
Evelyna you better let Hillside be mine too .
Or i kick & let you roll down the hill of your house .
HA !

Basically my week's been fantastic , thou i'm fully aware i spent alot .
Town & studying with jaryl tmr .
Hopefully Xinyi is able to tag along .
& we are gonna be hot & popular people .
Cheryl Fox & Diana Seer better notice us man .
LOL .

Monday, June 19, 2006

Father's Day celebration was at my house this time .
No dinner at some restaurants or some family activity .
Everyone came over & gathered together .

Unlike last time , it was slightly different this time .
We ordered pizzas & kfc to be delivered to my home .
Heh .
Ordered 6 boxes of pizzas & 4 sets of kfc Family Meal .
Well it was just nice to fill 6 family stomachs ((:
But there were jelly , cocktails , otahs & the father's day cake .

Ate alot that i felt super bloated after everything .
I was close into wanting to barf with Syirin .
Omg i swear i can feel myself growing sideways .
& to make matters worst , Kak Sri said she see me gaining some weight .
Omg faints .
This is so not a goooddd sign .
Time for more jogging , gym & swimming ((:

The father's day speech given by each child representative from each family was heary-warming , touching & a little tinge of laughter .
I seem to owe alot to daddy that i teared after everything .
I can't seem to help it .
I just felt super blessed under his care .
I am appreciative of it all , i certainly am .
He seems to be supportive of everything i do .
He understands me more than mom does .
He doesnt throw his temper around & never fail to pamper me with love & money .
LOL .
Including my never-ending wants & desires .
Name it & it shall be mine .
Fine , it is super cliched .
But its true .
I love you daddy & happy fathers' day !! <33
-nudge for the new 6280 phone-

& abg ijet made such a funnnnyyyyy speech that everyone laugh at once .
Well my uncle works in Gardenia & is one of the high rank people .
So logically , he brings back home bread all of the time .
Fine , every two days .

So he went ;
Dad is the family bread winner (although my aunt work & earn big bucks as well ) as he brings home bread all the time .
Omg when he said this with his voice it was super funny please .
Everyone just couldnt help laughing & i laughed like non-stop .
Talking about pun intended huh .
& he added this too :
So he's the best bread winner amongst all .

What the shit .
He's nineteen yet he says things super blondly .
Ahh at least it was funnny & cute ((:

Talked alot with cousins , be it the guys / the girls .
Cam-whored like nobody's business lah .
From sickening Kawaii pose done by the ~~guy~~ cousins , to narcistic snapshots , to the joy of mirror reflection , to the jumping anti-shake spreeee & feminine poses .
Heh heh .

The aunties were superr chaotic .
They laughed non stop .
I knew it , once they laugh , they can't stop .
& i didnt know they made such a din while watching soccer .
Super enthu & funny lah .
I was even smacked by Auntie May cos i dont know who missed a goal .
Wah lao .
I was super shocked that i screamed .
Oh boy, the fun in the family ((:

& we kept playing around with Ishraf Nokia 6280 3G phone .
Yes he's not the only one in the family with 3G phones .
There are 3 other cousin with 3G phones .
But he is only primary six please .
& my aunt pamper him with such stuffs .
Its only six months & he has changed his phone thrice .
Faints ..
Maybe its time i come from a good school & family who spends money like water .
Whereby materialistic stuff becomes a necessity , no longer a need .
& holidays become a common thing since you are a toddler .
Parents bring me around the world only when i am in Primary One cos only then will it be more worthwhile cos i am able to understand ?
Yet he , Fahmy & Rifqi has travelled around the world like nobody's business .
Not forgetting the exposure they have since they are young .
From a non-common sport to musical talents to speech drama classes & many more .
Let's take his elder brother ; Fahmy for example .
He's only eighteen , a year older than me yet he already received both a bike & car license .
He is stil in the process of getting a plane license , cos he's in the Youth Flying Club .
Overseas trips made by SAJS & ACS(I) in addition for rugby matches & fieldtrips .
There's more to mention about the family lifestyle but i shan't go into details .
But you do get what i mean right ?

Super fun time with the entire big massive family today .
Frankly , i would never trade anything else for this family .
The love & bond we shared as one is indispensible .
At times i come to wonder if my life would be of such joy & a blissful one if not for you big group of people .
Would i have cousins whom i can laugh , cry , curse , shop & go around cam-whoring with at any point of time .
Would i have a big group of wonderful people whom we meet like every month for any kind of celebration .
Would family dinner be such a joy despite it being super frequent .
Would holidays as a big group be such a chore .
Would i have aunties who gossip , laugh hysterically & still be supportive of everything we do .
Would i have uncles whom you can joke around with & be more of a brother than an elder one .

I am in such a happy mood today .
I feel super euphoric , like i never was after such a long time .
I'm thankful for this massive family & two group of friends ((:

Ah shit i sound as if everything's gonna come to an end .
But wth , i suddenly feel so thankful & blessed .
Can't I ?

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Garfield two is freaking hilarious!
Alright more of you laugh at Garfiled & Prince stupidity!
But i shant deny its a little stupid the show .
More of very ambitious for a cat to have such lavish lifestyle & intelligence .
But I swear you'll laugh through out the entire one hour & fifteen minutes show .
& i didnt know Garfiled is such a pampered adorable bozo cat ! ( bozo was quoted from the show )
Watch it if you wanna laugh to your hearts content to destress ((:
Watch it if you want to see how silly animals can get .
Heh heh .

I was being obnoxiously retarted with fifa just now .
Went to the toilet to ease ourselves .
We kept screaming Kotex & Condoms like all the way from inside the toilet to the escalators to the movies to met up with the guys again .
We were screaming & laughing super loudly & horrendously .
There was this guy who turned when fifa screamed CONDOM !
& she went : WHY U WANT IS IT?
HAHAHA!
Hilarious shit .
& on the way to the toilet we called each other stupid names & when we laugh, we smacked one another like a mockery of small irritants .
&& i didnt know i scared the shit out of this girl .
We were walking the opposite direction from a big bunch of people who just ended some movie .
So we practically had to push ourselves thru the opposing crowd .
Wanted to scare some people but gave the idea away .

While i was walking & laughing with her , there was a wall before the ticketing counter .
The wall blocked our view & when i turned , i scared the shit out of this chinese girl that she screamed super loudly .
Naturally , i sreamed together with her & started laughing .
It was super chaotic i tell you .

RAAHHH .
Fun fun time with her & three others .
But it'll be super such a miracle if time spent with her isn't fun & crazy .
What's more , when you put two loud ~~crazy~~ hyper girls together! ((:

Oh oh , i think fifa's ceramic one eyed elephant is super cute & interesting .
ALthough the trunk was a little too stiff .
Oh the wonders of NAFA'S creativity jucies .
Heh .

& C-box is such a bitch lah .
It changed to shoutbox yet again .
It never fail to change continuosly .
i'll change soonnn lah .
Tsk .

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

This whole week has been great .
Seriously great .
Its been a few weeks since i last hang out with dean jaryl & xinyi .
Just the four of us .
So the sunday was fantastic .
Bitching , laughing & cam-whoring was a necessity as always .
& it so happen ..
Sunday was cabbing day .
The entire day we cabbed down four times!
Yeah girlfriend , ~~four~~ freaking times !
((:
I or rather we felt super spoilt .
But it was super accesible & fast to tavel by cab .
It was still interesting & bitching .

Cabbed from dean's house to Esplanade fpr Yuhua&RV Alumni Beautiful Sunday Concert .
two thumbs up for it .
The RJ guy was such an eye opener .
His trumpeting skills awed me .
Like totally .
& the small percussion drum performance was great too .
The juniors were as skillful as the alumni , Sanajy & this guy .

After everything Jaryl has to rush home for some stuffs .
So we cabbed down his house & the three of us left for an early dinner at JP .
After dinner , dean wanted to get new Havaianas .
So Xinyi left us after dinner & the two of us cabbed down Heeren .

& it was just our luck to have a cab driver who was pretty uncertain of the route .
So i bitched ard with dean abt him using F language .
So 3/4 of our journey was in F langugage .
& to think he took the Ulu Pandan route .
What a cheebong driver .
& to think he still dare to pretend he knows where the fuck Heeren is .
Tsk tsk .
Nevertheless it was a rather nice cab ride .
Somehow we open up quite a bit .

Okay incident at New Urban Male was hilarious shit .
Dean was rather frekaed out & nrevous by the people there .
& what a waste the guys there are a little crooked .
& a particle guy seriously stand out ((:
Heh heh .
Looked around , grabbed his slippers & left the place .
I was telling him he shud have tried applying for a place in Num & without hesitation they'll take him in .
& for the first time in history he'll be the straight one ((:

Walked down town & grabbed berms .
Was feeling relatively tired by then .
Called for a cab from paragon & we head home .

Fun fun time with the three of them .
For once , cab ride was enjoyable & disastroubly funnaeh .
Somehow i am very much contented for what i have .
Maybe this is all i would ever ask for .

Dean's birthday today .
Finally the Ns bitch & cheebong turned nineteen ((:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY ((:
Gave him a surprise at JP .
I dont think he saw it coming .
& his gifts was rather last minute .
& it was super good to hang out with naz & sheril once again .
Its been some time & it certainly was relieving .

Thanks alot for the crumpler .
I swear i do not see it coming .
Maybe its these unexpected things that make me reflect alot .
How much people treasure & appreciate you in silence .
How much one hold a torch for you & there's this certain hesitance in me to reciprocate .
But nevertheless , i'm thankful for it .
In one way or another , you made me feel loved ((:
Just like how a particular group of friends , make me feel .

Friday, June 09, 2006

I think Marina Square is a good place for me to bump onto people .
I bumped onto Weijian at the linkway heading towards GV Marina & screamed right into his face .
HAHA !
He was super shocked & i cant help seeing him stutter in disbelief .
Oh boy do i miss my dnt seat mate bully ((:

After i finished my show , i bumped onto Wirda & her sister .
It so happen , we were in the same movie & watching the same show .
How coincidential , considering the fact i have not meet her for years .
Her sister is still as adorable & pretty as ever .
& she is still as funky & petite as ever , heh (:

I think Cars would have deserved a much better rating if not for the super slowwwwww story plot .
Thank god the characters Sally & Lightning McQueen make up for it .
& i think its super funny to even see cars as spectators of the race .
& the soundtracks during the movie are extremely laughable .

Sentosa this sunday .
I hope to get myself tanned since last sunday was a failed attempt .
Somhow i hope the sentosa trip would be an enjoyable & rocking one .
What's more , it is a birthday celebration for three people .
The entire atmosphere ought to be high , crazy & euphoric ((:
Oh pls do not dampen that spirit in me .

Ahhh shit .
SO many things are happening next week .
Monday is three days away & i am still at lost on what to do .
It better not be a disappoinment since its supposed to be a jovial & memorable occasion .
Dean's birthday this coming tuesday .
Yet again i do not know what to get for him .
Urrgh , this feeking suck .
I seriously swear .

On a lighter note , the cousin ; Sharleen turned eleven yesterday .
A little late as it may seems .. but ...
HAPPY ELEVENTH BIRTHDAY SHARLEEEENNN IMANI ((:
Fret not , i'll go for a sleepover before your june hols ends .
Lovelove .
I love big butss & i cannot lie ; your trademark & very own rendition of it , heh .

Not forgetting Asssry the kawaii no.1 friend .
HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY my 73ysbshsbshabshs friend ! (:
A year older but not kawaii less right ? heh heh ((:

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Blogger was being such a bitch last night .
I wrote one long entry about yesterday's event & problems just had to occur when i was about to publish it .
Tsk .
Super screwed lah .

Ballon Hat Festival this year wasn't as upbeat as last year .
Somehow last year was way way better .
Or maybe , its because yesterday's band was pretty mediocre , excluding TKGS .
Saturday was all the powerful & groovy bands , so yeah .

& i think CHIJ St Nicks has a pretty blur & ganjiong percussionist .
Her facial expression is super obvious she's ganjiong & it has this very classic touch .
HAHA .
Super classic lah .
I was noticing her more & kept laughing .
I cannot help teasing her with winnie ( alright more of i tease & immitate ) & Xinyi said i was being such an ass .
HAHA .
Bt you should have been there to witnesss .

Tram ride was hilarious shit .
We did a rebound & laughed like shit all the way .
& the tram driver has a weird accent .
Or rather ..
If you have a pretty unique voice , accent & english pronounciation , you should work in Sentosa .
I bet you 1836484-27163 bucks they will hire & welcome you with ~~smelly~~ warm open arms ((:
& they can tour you around & have a nice chat at Siloso Looonggeeee & not Siloso Lounge .

Slacked at Pahlawan beach & basically talk , munch , gossip & took photos .
We made a masterpice out of a sandcastle stuff i found on the sand .
& we used it to make boobs .
We added a full body & it look super sexaayyyyy ((:
Yeah man , it looks super sexaayyy & cute , like those happy house girls , but not as childish ((:
I have yet to upload photos , so yeah pictures laterrrrr .

& my darlings came to Pahlawan.
Spongebob & Patrick from Nickelodeon .
OMG!
Everyone was fighting over them to have their pictures taken .
Including parents & some pinkish minah .
Took some group photos & individual shots .
I cant help but bully Patrick , my adorable walking dick ((:
I kept tickling his long , was it nose? HAHAHA .

The finale was cute & nice ((:
The atmosphere was high & full of screaming .
I simply love the part whereby everyone let go of their ballons at one go .
The scenery seems very serene ( thou the atmosphere obviously wasn't ) & therepeutical ((:
& colourful ballons up in the air was such a nice sight-seeing .
Somehow it has a very New Year ambience when the ballons were all released .

Dinner with new found friends for like only a day .
HAHA .
Assry was like the male version of fifa which was super cool & funkaeh !
We could seriously click & i dont think he mind myself laughing horrendously loud & be an additional spice to his crap & classic moments .
Fun fun time with them during dinnnnerrrrr ((:
& not forgetting ..
~~Kawaii~~ impromptu pose number one , convering the pimple ((:
How classic , i like .
I laughed like shit upon seeing it .

There comes a time in life,that i realise things aren't how they are.
There is a deeper meaning to everything.
A more complicated thing.
& i we refuse to find out about it.
So as to not, complicate this feelings.
& it all becomes clearer as we mature .
It all becomes clearer when we grow up .

Monday, June 05, 2006

Ballon Hat Festival this year wasn't as exciting & uproar as last year .
But nevertheless i had a rocking gooodd time .
Unlike last year , this year i went with only Xinyi & Winnie .
Despite only having the three of us , it was disastrous & crazy enough .

The train journey to Harbour Front was spent on talking about condoms , vibrators & viagra pills!
HAHA YEAH BABY.
It was super kinky & kick assss .

Reached Sentosa & there wasn't even a single sun!
Ironically , people would love to shun away from the sun , but no .
Myself & Winnie was too excited in wanting to tanned ourselves .
But to our dismay it was just a disappointment .
But the weather was great somehow ..
Tkgs band was gooood . ( i am not surprised )
St nicks had a super ganjiong & blur percussionist .
Her facial expression was classic .
WAHAHAHAHA ((:
I cant help teasing her & Xinyi said i was being such an ass .
HAHAHA .

& if any of you are weird or have a rather unique command of english & pronounciation , you fit the bill perfectly of working in Sentosa .
I bet 283738374 bucks they will accept you with open ~~smelly~~ sexy open arms ((:
& you can join them at the Siloso Loonge & not Siloso Lounge .

Sat down at Pahlawan Beach & rot & talk .
A guy approached us for some photos ((:
Crapped arounddddd ....
&&&&&& i found this sandcastle round thingy .
We made two gorgeous boobs out of it .
& created a girl figure out of it .
It was super sexy okayyyyy .
I shall post it some other time as i have yet to upload pics from my cam .

Patrick & Spongebob from Nickelodeon came down too .
Everyone was rushing towards them .
They were super adorable , pinchable , huggable & irresistable .
Patrick my walking dick was god damn cuteeeeeee lah .
Managed to hug him & i kept bullying him .
We took a group photo & also individual ones .

The finale performance was splendid .
I love the realeasing of the ballons up in the air .
It was gorgeous & such a retail therapy .
But the entire situation was a little too chaotic & uptight .

We all separated after everything .
I met up with fifa & gang for dinner at Harbour Front .
Super chaotic & loud lah .
& vulgar too .
HAHA
& i so swear Ben has some hearing problems .
Every single thing i or rather we said was misinteprated .
& it all sounds miles apart .

Haiyah , i have lots to talk about bt i am not in the mood to blog .
Wait for the urge to blog yet again & it shall be a long & interesting one .

It all became a realisation only yesterday.
There comes a time in life,that i realise things aren't how they are.
Its so subtle but seems to hit me hard .
There is a deeper meaning to everything.
A more complicated thing
& we refuse to find out about it.
So as to not, complicate your feelings.
& i realise it all becomes clearer as we grow older & mature .

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Hair treatment in town yesterday .
My stylist was out of town for some course & so this extremely friendly & good looking guy , Mike took over me .
Unlike my stylist Man Heng, Mike doesnt look effeminate at all .
Thank god .
But to my disappointment , he ain't that good .
He didnt really know how to handle my hair thou he was pretty amusing & nice to talk to .
Maybe its because he is not an effeminate , he didnt do the job as well as my hairstylist .
Like they said , usually professionals & great hairstylist are effeminate & ~~gays~~ ((:
LOL

Met up with Xinyi for dinner at Taka .
She was having some presentation earlier in the day & look extremely formal & mature .
As if she was some office girl .
I couldnt help but to laugh at first sight .
But it was nice to see her dress like that , it was a change .
A pretty good change rather .
A short dinner in town & we were both too tired to blabber alot .
Although i was hyper for a moment due to some reason .. *nudge xinyi*
So we did more eating & stonnign instead of talking .
& in the train , we both dozed off systematically .
HAHA

Oh god , i have a dinner to attend .
A pretty formal one rather .
That explains the reason behind the hair treatment .
Later people .
Hello to maizura the glutton whose gonna indulge & binge on heavenly food yet again .