Of what it seems to be

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

there they go again .. quarelling & bickering since god knows when . for goodness sake , stop it will you ? i am sick of listening to their constant quarelling & screams . i wonder when will my parents ever learn to compromise . & i always wonder when will they stop making their dispute pretty evident to their child ; me . i am hating this , i swear . one is temperemental whereas the other refuses to oblige nor admit defeat . dammit man . give me a break will you ? give me a break . give everybody else a break . give yourself a break . won't you ever get tired ? i am seriously getting tired of this ..

i hate ranting this out here . its with a heavy heart initially . but i just have to .. do i have a choice ?

may tomorrow morning breakfast with xinyi perk me up . oh boy do i have lots to talk & laugh about .

p/s : shida . thanks for being there when i least expect you to . you know nothing about it , but still u tried your means & ways to cheer me up & let things work . thanks a million girl (:

Saturday, March 25, 2006

mama(natasha's mom) called me early in the morning to accompany her down to see natasha's sports heat & hockey B division finals .

well i must say sports heat in a girls school is such an eye opener . its such a joy & fun time to see how hysterical yet supportive the crescentians are (: their cheers & screams made me & my aunt laughed so much . congrats to natasha for clinching second place to both her 4X100m relay for Keller house & inter-cca ; hockey . & oh i must say punkhurst red hair & red devil hairband & china doll red cheeks was extremely cute man .

crescentians supporting their teachers

natasha natasha

we then head down to town for lunch & soon after i accompanied mama to cute her hair . & omg i swear the talk mama had with the hairdresser was so interesting . since both their children are in reputable & single gender schools , they talked about almost everything & even keeping up with the trend in order to cater to them (: & also the influenceces these school have in place .

okay now onwards its gonna be a long entry . bare with me please .

we rushed down to delta to catched crescent B div finals against st nicks . although we were 15 mins late , we didnt missed out much .

frankly i think crescent did great . seeing how much aggression & determination they put in while playing . seeing how much pride they had while running around with those sticks amazed me . needless to say , the game was very tensed & anxiety aroused at every single moment .

but what made me reflect alot was as to how high their school spirit & constance support to keep the team going strong . the cheers & screams of the players name is one thing you wouldnt see in every school . even st nicks school spirit wasn't that high & the people arent that supportive .

despite losing to st nicks by 2-0 on flicks during the end , i dare say the entire divison was a strong squad & of a great bond . it pains everyone's heart to see the entire squad simply fell on their knees , hug & started crying when st nicks was the winner . the tears in their eyes was evident as to how much they seriously wanted this & had trained so hard for .

this action was a total eye opener & touched my heart . the entire B div held hands in a row & move towards the crowd & bow down depsite tears filling up their eyes . tell me which school or how many would do this after a hard fall ? they were strong enough to pull themselves together & not let it affect them that much . the words of wisdom from the captain , her dedication & her hugs of comfort , made them stronger both as a person & a team . a job well done to crescent hockey B division . being in the finals of second position was a wonderful success . you girls made me see what a true sportsmanship is & the determination & passion you had in the game & in the pitch .

the hockers in action .

the ones who braved thru it with pride & determination

the juniors ; C div players doing getting ready to some cheer & moral support

the emotional trauma . those hugs & words of comfort is one you could never ask for more

the entire day made me reflect alot . i sincerely hope the juniors would do somehting about the current band situation . i'm very sure you guys wanted the Gold medal so hard . work for it please . it doesnt come easy .. (: have some initiative & bond as a band . yes one band . learn to open up & learn to help one another . i'm sure if you really work hard to something you wanted badly , you'll achieve it . i wanted it really badly & i'm sure deep down so do you . with sheer hardwork & determination you'll be able to soar juniors . make US proud . make the school proud . & most importantly , make YOURSELF proud & have some great sense of satisfaction .

crescentians supporting their teachers

the hockers in action .

the ones who braved thru it with pride & determination

the juniors ; C div players doing getting ready to some cheer & moral support

Thursday, March 23, 2006

its nice & heart-warming to know that many others are there for you despite the obstacles that you go thru (: its even nicer to know that they understand the plight that you're in & try their very best to make you ; YOU .

many thanks to ferynn who tried to cheer & make me laugh endless with her msn emotions (: i appreciate it lots okay girl ? remember our "RYL" names ? mummy mairyl would always be there for you okay dearest feryl ? we got to be strong & macho taitai who could brave thru all these . likewise , i'll be here for you too & you can run to me anytime ..

okay let's digress alittle bit . alright alot rather ..

i had an interesting cab ride today . i cabbed down to yishun today cos i was tired & too lazy to board the train . but the cab driver was such a friendly & updated driver .. we talked about almost everything including the rigid education system . & his jokes are good enough to keep me awake thruout the 30 mins cab journey . & he even talked about teenagers nowadys & how naive they can get & the latest technology . he even made a mockery which to me is kinda true in one way or another, regarding 3G phones & relationship nowadays (:

& i wonder whats wrong with jaryl . get well soon baby .. we need you back in our late might msn chats & also our mr ANIME & HYPER KING & MR BB (: take care & get well soon cos the three of us have LOTS to do once you're well .

oh well i have lots to blog but suddenly i just dont feel like writing everything down despite being hyper . i promised band camp pictures right ? here it is .. enjoy (:

BAND CAMP 06

Saturday, March 18, 2006

putting aside the screwed up school security managment & authorities , band camp was hell lot of fun !! (: i felt the second day was way hyper & fun . the first day night walk at the foyer , bonded myself & xinyi with the sec 1s . they're not that bad afterall & are relatively a bunch of friendly & cute juniors (:

day two was nevertheless rocking . from the silly chicken ball games to hurling of curses during lunch to combined band practices & to the bbq night! (: nazreen was sabo-ed terribly & hell boy did she smell like vinegar & many other edible gross stuff .

not forgetting the chaotic time the alumni had in the percussion store room playing heart attack & bluff in the wee hours of the morning . the hysterical screams & laughters . the roti prata eating session at 4 am in the cafetaria . the girls trying their best to climb up the school gate . the non-stop gimmicks & trying so hard to control our laughter at the back of the band room after our prata eating session . the fighting of the sleeping bag . complaining of the extremely cold temperature & refusal to do anything about it . my pathetic ~~one hour~~ sleep .

& if you have been wondering , i still have yet to catch up my loss sleeping time . i shan't talk about how my supposedly happy day turn out to be . but to contradict myself a bit, the later time spent with juzailah at Ambrosia Cafe is awesome . i love the ambience of the entire restuarant & the food was unique yet delicious (:

what about pictures ? later ...

don't bring me down when i'm at my highest peak .
don't question me to get it all figured out .

Thursday, March 16, 2006

was watching What Women Want ... Really on CNA just now . this time it was on Tai-Tai's in Singapore .

& yes you are right , it caught my attention totally . (: its not the usual stereotypical singaporeans tatitai that they are talking about . but rather the working taitai . YES working taitai . somehow working taitai is such an oxymoron .

but these working taitai are brilliant okay . the jobs are top notch & yes they do run errands like many others & do not stick to one job . in other words they multi-task . & what was amazing was rushing after work to go for hightea & dinner . this extreme makeover & ability to change mentally & physically was such an eye opener . & yes they pay this make up artist 350 bucks per hour to doll themselves up for special occasions (:

& these working taitai are family women . yes be impressed cos i was . & so was diana serr . & it seems being a taitai runs in a family . (: they have parents & aunts who are no longer mediocre taitai & are the ones they look up to & heed advices from .

okay my point here is that .. its amazing to know that these people arent actually what we think they are . (: there is more to it .. & they dont do activities as expected nor idle their life away .. live life with a mission & passion .

& oh i am having a time of my life conversation with shida . she is now my MS MACHO (:

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

everyone seems to be feeling rather distraught & down recently . everything seems to be going the shit away . & all i ever see is this pessimist attitude in people . or either way people trying so hard to hide that facade in them , whereby a smile on the extreior & vengence & crying soul beneathe it all . only to be discovered by many others .

believe it or not , i actually stonned my journey away in the train on my back home today . lots of things actually went through my mind . & i wasnt feeling too good at that moment . the song scars by paparoach was playing & it strike a chord in my mind . the lyrics made me reflect alot & pull me down even further . soon after it was dont love you no more by craig david . bloody hell did it dampen my mood further . my emotions could not take it any longer & as stupid as this may sound .. i teared a little bit in the train . i faced down not wanting to let others see what i was going through .

it beats me why i got all sentimental out of a sudden . i'm serious i never wanted any of this to happen . i was all happy & hyper throughout the day . until the 40 mins journey had to spoil my entire mood & day . oh shucks .. now i am like part of the many others who is living in a masquerade . oh god do me a favour .. pls end this masquerade . its killing me ..

Lets pretend you’re mine
We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah
You got what I like
You got what I like, I got what you like
Oh come on
Just one taste and you’ll want more

the scars remind us that the past is real ..

i never wanted any of this to happen , seriously .

those words hit me so hard .

why must it hit me once again when i thought i had braved through it ?

dont pull me down even further when you know i am at my highest peak .

i can no longer play this game with you ..

i can't , i've lost this will & trust .

~~i swear shida will kill me if she sees this . esp since i promise her that we're gonna be macho & strong girls who could brave thru it all~~

Saturday, March 11, 2006

i can't believe i spend my saturday at home! BOO! i was close to dying of boredom when my cousins came over (: we didnt have that much of fun but they made me laughed & we watched dvd . BUT , i slept halfway thru on the couch . LOL =/

oh oh . jaryl & myself was being extremely bitchy & hyper on msn today! you wouldnt want to imagine till what extent & how much it made us go OMG WTH MAMPOS . my bitchiness even made jaryl giggled in front of his comp (: seee its such a fruitful day .. we were soo hyper that i find it so heavy to tell him i gtg . awwwww ..

& OMG! today was memoirs of our bitchy NS boy . he sms me & jaryl! OMG NS fail to turn him less bitchy . he is still the same . hail our macho macho NS boy (:

here are some of his sms to me ; since he cant sms that much cos it was already lights off . i shant post what i replied to him cos u guys wouldnt wanna know either . teehee (:

macho macho ns boy : haha! okay lah, i hate my i/c sergent . asshole. but my platoon is the best! ur brother is a turn off! muahahaha

macho macho ns boy : eh i lights off but sneaking to sms la. somemore my bed is beside the window corridor! oh he is sloppy! totally turn off, he looked ar me hwile i give marching timing for my platoon! all from sispecs sucks! haha all la, half of it is your bro. LOL .

macho macho ns boy : oh we same coy! yeah. haha wth. anyway ur brother coy wanna step we semangat la. wateva , okay gotta sleep. tml is another fun day ahead! caio & nights .

okay tell me if this isnt bitchy ? muahaha . but whatever it is myself & jaryl miss his bitchiness & crapiness! so yeah we were delighted & hyper again on msn when we received his sms . memoirs of our macho macho ns boy (:

p/s: you may be lost to his sms cos you wouldnt wanna know what read between those sms =d

You scored as Linguistics. You should be a Linguistics major!

Linguistics

100%

Journalism

100%

English

92%

Dance

92%

Theater

92%

Sociology

83%

Philosophy

75%

Psychology

67%

Art

58%

Anthropology

33%

Biology

33%

Mathematics

33%

Engineering

17%

Chemistry

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i'm a linguist ? oh boy .. i didnt know that my joy in learning & listening to a new foreign language is somehow related to myself having a passion in studying the language history & structure (: -beams-

Friday, March 10, 2006

first & foremost . apologies to shaminah & jaryl for not coming down today . blame myself for being in such a hurry & forgetting to bring the most important thing of all ; my sneakers . BOOO ! ): i hope u guys had fun & that the orientation was a blast & as fun as the PAE 01 island of pioneerock (: i'm sure in one way or another it would have rocked big time & pulled everyone with one spirit ; A PIONNER SPIRIT (:

on a lighter note , i met up with xinyi & chi suen for dinner . oh boy was it fun & brought much laughters . as usual , we were rather indecisive as to where to have our dinner . we walked out of jurong point but went in back when xinyi commented she dont feel like eating at boonlay market . LOL

so we went one side to discuss . it was a fight between : fish & co , swensens or pizza hut . but we ended up at swensen's again . yet again . each time i had dinner / lunch with xinyi ; it'll be swensens . LOL

we had a long wait since the queue was quite a stretch . but that didnt bore us . we gossiped & we bullied chi suen! hahaha ! dinner was indeed great & delicious . ironically we were very quiet while we were all eating .. the only time we talked was asking one another if we want to have a bite of whatever we are having . LOL . but somehow while we're finishing & was chatting before leaving .. we took so many candid photos & had so much fun . well we laughed a lot although its within ourselves . it was of much fun & joy . oh boy did it made me smile & stretches my face muscles despite being a bit guilty for not going . (: & oh screw that woman who was sitting diagonally & kept on staring & noticing our every move . in what way did we offend or make u feel uneasy . screw her mann ..

and oh did i mention warren sms me at 9.15 PM just to ask if i want to come down white sands mac ? HAHAHA! its like i live in another end of Singapore . naturally i rejected cos its already 9+ & i would have died on my journey heading towards white sands & probably back home too . it'll take one freaking hour & i swear i would have just died of boredom & fatigue . but hey boy , thanks for asking anyway . next time if its before 9 Pm , i'll head down alright ? even if its after dinner time (:

my dinner ; spicy black pepper seafood pasta (:

chi suen's diner ; some new steak & dont know what lah . lol

xinyi's dinner ; spicy fish pasta i think . haha

a decent picture . (:

pretty girls at swensens

when we chose to be decent & demure

CHI SUEN CHI SUEN (:

the spastic boy

how unglam lah . tsk tsk .

insanity strikes when you put two crazy fellows together

trust me , xinyi was enjoying this . this was the second pic out of her many crazee & silly attempts

WHAT A TURN OFF ! but i find it freaking funny

Thursday, March 09, 2006

yesterday was a total blast . i had so much fun in my life . laughing , hyperventilating , bitching , dancing till i got all worn out , cam-whoring & gossiping .

& so i went back pj with xinyi & jorge to see how the 02 orientation was . sad to say , it isn't that fun & i dare say 01 orientation is the best (: and oh , i taught the fun dance together with jaryl(my dearest partner) , dean , leedeeya , natania , redzuan , SHAMINAH , wei long , rachel & another three ? i swear i dont't know their names , sorry .

well , indeed the demo did a great job & the name itself ; fundance serve its purpose well enough . we worked as a team , was ourselves & enjoyed ourselves thoroughly . no matter how uncooperative the batch of students were , we managed to pull them as one & enjoy the joy of dancing the fundance (: oh boy was it a great & an enjoyable work out . but it was extremely tiring dancing & teaching for like so many hours that i was so flat when i was at the cafetaria . and i was extremely high yesterday while dancing . & oh i saw my wy at the back of the hall which resulted in me hyperventilating & getting all excited on stage , and having the front row ppl giving me perplexing looks . LOL .

the canteen time with xinyi , jorge & dean nevertheless wrap up my day in pj memorably (: and i didnt know my pretty NS boy watched campus superstar too! HAHA! we were discussing abt it like for so long & i was nice enough to tell him ; i'll sms him each week who got eliminated . tell me i am nice! xD sadly , jorge left early to meet his friends & it was left with just the 3 of us .

needless to say , i seriously enjoyed the conversation so much! as much as it made me laugh & turn out to be not so demure . in fact , its a good day to spend our last moments with dean before he serve the nation &to become a macho pretty boy( as stated by natania) . i'll be lying if were to say i wouldnt miss him ; esp his bitching . the an hr plus conver made us realise so much random things which are rather fruitful (: and aiyah , you should have remained in SSC lah . only then can you be the malay version of our hot Mark Chay , coincidentally sharing the same lane . and we also talked about the past . excuse me i was still naive back then alright . i didnt say he was cute ; *&*#^($&#(&$)$&*_#$( . HAHA ! and dammit , i saw wy a million times in the canteen cos he was just across of us & he actually walk past us a million times . OMG OMG ! i should have said hi lah! i didnt even smiled which i always do cos dean & xinyi kept dissing me . AHH ! okay pardon that hype in me please .

& the back home journey . it brought so much laughters yet again & the bitching never stops . it was a nice ride home despite being very much worn out & dead . it was such a waste for all the four of us , not having a group picture together .

farewell pretty boy . till we meet in 3 weeks time .

she is his victim . nevertheless she never stop saying ; " dean i am going to miss you lah . today would be the last time i would be seeing you " . (:

our stupid yet cute moments together .

Friday, March 03, 2006

i need to go gym more often . its time i shed those unwanted excess & maintain my figure . i hate feeling heavy & fat thighs .

today gym session with juzailah was fruitful . its ironic that we were grumbling under the hot sun while walking to JE sports complex yet realising we were burning our calories & sweating ain't a bad thing after all . so we spent an hour in the gym , doing intensive work out . i am indeed contented . i felt super beat to the extend i tried my very best to open up my eyes since the journey is just 7 mins ?

okay i am not feeling too good . pist & irritated rather . i guess its time teachers learn to have a restriction as to how much they want to say . having an authority doesnt gives one the rights to demoralise & bring someone's name down . to the extent of announcing it to your own students ; the victim's juniors . at the very least he proved you & many others wrong . the well deserved B grade reflects upon how much effort & dedication the student puts in . not simply because for the sake of the student's future , but also to prove you & the school wrong . now the 100% passes is worth it

now be realistic . where is the believe of teachers being a motivator & our guiding lights ? you were a total opposite of it , a disagrace to many others who were more than willing to help . reflect upon yourself . dont be one if you have little patience & confidence in a student . now you've lost all your respect that you deserve .