Saturday, February 11, 2012
No longer look forward to the weekends. It's been six weeks & nothing has changed.
Back then after every lesson on a Saturday, I'll look forward to an eventful start of my weekend. Yuppp no matter how mentally & physically drained I get from teaching.
Fri evening 3 hours of class till 930pm & 6.5 hours worth of sat classes.
It gets harder trying to digest this cold hard truth. But superwoman me can do this!!!
Friday, February 03, 2012
Curiosity killed the cat.
In relation, curiosity killed trust. Curiosity killed my profound happiness. Curiosity (fucking) killed impression.
If you know me well enough, you should be very aware of my immaculate "stalking" skill. It seems like this skill is quite detrimental. I discovered conversations, raw feelings that are better left unsaid, undiscovered, by yours truly.
As of two months ago, I am surviving on paranoia for this relationship.
I cannot help but feel shaken each time I recall what I've read/seen/discovered.
If someday this relationship dwindle to a losing end, I guess I can't solely blame him. I've to be blamed for his straying acts.
There must be a reason why certain things aren't shared with me, right? There must be a reason why some arguments are left dangling. One morning we both woke up realizing that our issues are so yesterday & started behaving perfectly normal. Eh, whatever happened to prior cold shoulder & one word replies?
Oh yes, we've chucked it down this barrel of ignorance!
You must be wondering why I'm keeping mum?
Simple reason - I wish to avoid any heated dispute & debate on trust & the likes. The possibility of that happening is a definite 100%.
