Tuesday, March 14, 2006
everyone seems to be feeling rather distraught & down recently . everything seems to be going the shit away . & all i ever see is this pessimist attitude in people . or either way people trying so hard to hide that facade in them , whereby a smile on the extreior & vengence & crying soul beneathe it all . only to be discovered by many others .
believe it or not , i actually stonned my journey away in the train on my back home today . lots of things actually went through my mind . & i wasnt feeling too good at that moment . the song scars by paparoach was playing & it strike a chord in my mind . the lyrics made me reflect alot & pull me down even further . soon after it was dont love you no more by craig david . bloody hell did it dampen my mood further . my emotions could not take it any longer & as stupid as this may sound .. i teared a little bit in the train . i faced down not wanting to let others see what i was going through .
it beats me why i got all sentimental out of a sudden . i'm serious i never wanted any of this to happen . i was all happy & hyper throughout the day . until the 40 mins journey had to spoil my entire mood & day . oh shucks .. now i am like part of the many others who is living in a masquerade . oh god do me a favour .. pls end this masquerade . its killing me ..
Lets pretend you’re mine
We could just pretend, we could just pretend, yeah yeah
You got what I like
You got what I like, I got what you like
Oh come on
Just one taste and you’ll want more
the scars remind us that the past is real ..
i never wanted any of this to happen , seriously .
those words hit me so hard .
why must it hit me once again when i thought i had braved through it ?
dont pull me down even further when you know i am at my highest peak .
i can no longer play this game with you ..
i can't , i've lost this will & trust .
i swear shida will kill me if she sees this . esp since i promise her that we're gonna be macho & strong girls who could brave thru it all
