Monday, July 23, 2007
My emotion was all over the place today.
I tried not to show my weak side in class too much cause we all tend to be judgemental too easily. Plus i'm not as comfortable with them just yet to spill everything out.
To suddenly burst into tears when seconds ago i was horrendously laughing.
I find it hard to make myself second the above statement.
Cause we're all made to let go of certain things despite your magnanimous effort.
That includes standing by your believes and alter ego.
If everyone were to compromise & give in all the time, the world wouldn't be deemed as unfair.
We wouldn't be able to withstand such tough adversities - be it instantly or after subsequent events.
The world isn't set for us to paint rosy pictures of life all the time. Embracing such joyous yet serene moments every single time.
I marvel at the fact of the constant changes and shit i've to go through this year.
Its too much for me to handle, for someone so vulnerable deep inside.
But contemplation sets me thinking - i learnt to be independent.
Cause only I can look after my own back.
Not that my friends aren't helpful, they really are. I appreciate them.
But certain things only me, myself & I can tackle and do a personal battle.
p/s: I'm
NOT finger pointing anyone. Kick that feeling if this triggers you in feeling this way
